बहाने

गम में रहने के लिए तो तेरे पास बहाने हैं कई, पर सच बता,

खुश रहने को भी बहाने कुछ कम नहीं. ए इंसान तेरी ख्वाहिश है क्या, ठहर के सोच तो ज़रा, क्यूंकि इस जीवन को जीने के तेरे पास तरीके कोई कम नहीं.

Bored

So bored of this mundane, need a change 

a change to the other side, like in the movies

to float in a happy space full of light music

and slow dancing people

to feel the strong wind in the face

when chasing the morning sun

through winding highways in open top cars

to go hunting for huge deserted spaces

with wide walls to fill

to fill them with colours, with random figures,

with thoughts and happiness

to set up the mood and strum some guitar 

jamming with strangers

constructing deep and stupid songs

line by line

and losing time just being happy, lost. 

chase the evening rays

somedays i chase,
chase the evening rays

like the blue birds in the western sky,
on open roads, i try to fly,

flirting with the breeze, it kisses my face,
i talk to the birds, the ones i race,

slowly slowly i loose them into the setting sun,
so i slow down to admire the tangerine colored one,

but it keeps moving, dipping down and down,
as if signalling me to head back to town,

so i think for a while and hit the brake,
coming to a halt besides a small calm lake,

i then hop onto the bonnet of my scarlet car,
and sit there to wait for my next friend, the pole star

but the travelling clouds seem to have other plans,
they play out the drums to the tune of a rain dance

and the orange sky slowly grows dark and hazy,
like the million thoughts driving me crazy,

but i think i love it, i aint complaining,
cause i can smell the sweet sand as it starts raining,

so i get drenched dancing as long as i can
and head back to town, a washed out, satisfied man

and though often in my home i sit and laze,
but then there are those days when i chase,
chase the evening rays

yesterday night

yesterday night was the night to fulfill your dreams

yesterday night while the moon shown like the sun all bright

sleeping on the bed you locked your mind in space

feeling safe behind the veil of ignorance

but then, the time still was flying

the clock in your mind was just lying

now that the sun is about to break its shackles

and the moon has almost lost its face

there ain't much left to change

all you can do is curse the night gone by

thinking why did you hide, why didn't you fight,

when all along you knew you were anyways gonna die

yesterday night

Of Good Byes and Good lucks

Of Good Byes and Good lucks

May be its about saying goodbyes

Or the feeling that lingers of loosing old ties

But I wish these be just momentary feelings

'cause soon you'll be happier with new found wings

Though there is no reason that I can define

Just a sad feeling in the back of my mind

And deep down I wish that tomorrow is brighter

And soon this heavy heart will grow lighter.

Good byes I know are always hard,

So I'll instead go with good lucks, that feel good,

And I'll raise this toast to all the old times

When despite situations, together we stood.

loosing the strength

One hand on her head
And the other rests by her waist
She seems about to cry
cursing this life she's got herself into
But I can for sure tell her that
She ain't got it wrong,
not then, not now
Cause I have seen it all, and i know
The strength in her eyes
And no I can't see her break down
not this way, not right now

I know it's easier to run away
Than to stand here waiting for things to change
But i too feel unsure
About her and about this moment
Cause this could be all in my mind
All my imagination
And she could just be tired
And needs some warmth, a place to rest

But then I have never seen her so frail
never so broken down in her eyes
And just wish to say
You know we have seen better days together
though tonight's not one of them
And i just want to say, hold on to me
and we will get over this one as well

One more time (redux)

Converted one of my poems to a song (composed by Shravan, and video editing by Ankit) and did a quick video with my Nikon Coolpix :)

you sang the song always so fine,

but I struggled hard to strum the rhyme

you danced with me and you danced so fine,

but I missed the beat almost each time

and I thought you were so over my line

no matter how I try you’d never be mine

but I never read, never read the subtle sign

so I drew it thick and never crossed the line

o its been, so long long a time

counting stars, on the empty beaches lying

o its been, so long long a time

since I saw your, nose ring shine

Na na naa nana naaa na na na

Na na naa nana naaa na na na

when I look behind, dark shadows I find

those moment remind, wish i’d read your mind

i ask your god, for one more chance

to rewind , and stop the time

so I can say, lady, will you dance with me,

leaving reasons behind, just for moments time,

so I can tell you lady, I never stopped trying,

give me a chance, just one more time

o its been, so long long a time

counting stars, on empty beaches lying

o its been, so long long a time

since I saw your, nose ring shine

Na na naa nana naaa na na na

Na na naa nana naaa na na na

and suddenly

and suddenly when the rain pours down on a burning day,
or from nowhere the sun breaks out to light up a dark foggy way,

suddenly when sometimes a smile sneaks in into a heated debate,
or when things just fall in place, solving puzzles after a hard long day,

suddenly I remember all those trans formative moments,
when everything changes in a sudden,
bringing along a rush of feelings,
and a sudden change in meanings ..


i raise this toast to that instant feeling of change,

...... to suddenness

happy ol' days

sun rays on my face ...
life at a slow pace ...
ah i so hated that race ...
but then who cares,

when its back to the happy ol' days.

hain tayyar hum

hai tayaar hum fir se lagta hai,
duniya ke dastooron se ladne ko
jeene ko, marne ko,
haan fir kuch naya karne ko

bird in the wide world

such a big wide world

n you cant even hide bird

have you ever lied bird

can you even try bird

wide wide wide world

prisoner of your pride bird

did you even hear my word

let me tell the truth bird

you aint the only one bird

red bird white bird

you're just part of the herd

tera milna bhi ektafak tha,

to bichadne pe kya gum karein

safar main sangraahi the kuch der ke ,

unse naata bana ke bhi ab kya hum karein

aaj jo aaj main jeeta hoon,

usse kal ko ab qurbaan kya hum karein

kismat

itna bhi na kismat pe tu aitbaar kar
ki kal ki thokar ko tu seh na sake

khud pe itna bhi gumaan na kar
ki kal, khud ke wajood se hi naata mil na sake


in ankhon ke sapno pe aitbaar bas itna kar
ki tu bhadh chale zamane se aage,
par bin apno ki duaayein bhoolkar

i am the conflict

i am the confusion in clarity, the routine in irregularity

the meaness in charity, the sober in vanity,

i am the love in hatred, the pervert in sacred,

the truth in the lies, the wicked in the wise

i am the meaning in chaos, the rebel from ethos

the method in the madness, the joy in sadness

i am the loneliness in success, the freedom in duress,

the pain behind the laughter, the satisfaction of the destructor

i am tangled emotions n bungled ambitions

the cog in the wheel or the god in every deal,

i am the patient contributing to creation,

the materialist wishing for salvation

i am 'the lost soul' in this 'connected world'

To Open Source and Evangelism

Let’s open our eyes, to the visions of future
Unleash our instincts and be free to venture
Let’s get over the endless fear of defeat
And leave behind the tradition of conceit

Let’s listen to each voice, within and without,
‘Cause those real gems, they rarely shout.
Let’s for once walk over the rough terrain of noise,
To find that rare gem, the beautiful voice.

Come let’s a part of this ideological revolution
An honest attempt to fuel our evolution.
And let's join hand to nurture this belief
That we were not born just to compete.

Missing you

getting soaked to the skin
just to remind am still living.
it has been so long, so very long,
the slow dances and the lovely rain song.

i miss the naughty smile
of childhood innocence it would remind,
and i miss the soft hands that held me tight
when nothing else in the world felt right.

ever since you left this life,
and took away all things bright,
i cry and i cry each night
just to feel,
and feel just a bit all right.

Belief

Look up at the sky
to discover a belief to live by,

the belief in the truimph of reason
and belief in the human soul,
the belief in simplicity of truth
and belief in the fluidity of right,
the belief in love of life
and belief in a future bright,

how ever far away from the shore
the sky shall always guide the belief,
and we shall always remain survivors,
survivors in the battles with unknowns

Time to be happy again

Wake up people, lets go insane,
put on the dancing shoes, lets go out in the rain,

time to set this life to music again,
let the chords we lost resonate once again,

come lets fly and free all chains,
the wind shall flow favorable again,

we'll bury the past, be happy again,
this one life we'll no more live in vain,

come on people lets board a fantasical train
lets travel around n spread smiles all over again

Unforseen

people drowning all around
from a mountain you watch alone,
the sky is all smoked up
raining black drops hitting you like stone.

at a distance your children
are drowning without a struggle,
hapless you stand
there is nothing you could do.

its then finally that you try to think
what have i done
where have i come
this wasn't how i thought it would end.

another chance is all you want
to relive the life and clean up this mess,
another life to give up the greed
to live with only that you really need,
to give back to this earth
all you shamelessly sucked out of her womb.

you shout out loud looking up at the sky
and remember for the last time your forgotten God.

darkness ... silence ...
moments so full of nothingness ...

then a streak of light
it brightens up the room,
fresh air around
brings back the missing life,
the koel singing on the window sill
just stops for a moment to make you realize.

loud you laugh
"oh ! it was just another dream".

waking up from a bad dream
how does it feel to be back again?
you needed to be shook up
to be woken up to realities unforseen,
all that you have and all you have dreamed
is about to be washed to shores unknown.

the bad dream is over
but don't rejoice
'cause you still got some time
to make your choice
you have promses to keep
to all those you saw there weep,
wake up this time
this dream might not be a dream next time.

Speed

Speeds are goals meant to be achieved ...
and blockades in the path are just there to impede ...
At all times that we exceed ...
there's somthing that makes sure we receed ...

We fall ... We rise ...
but remember, its just another of those tries,
an attempt to reach new Highs,
to play hide and seek with that element of surprise.

Make sure you never lose the greed ...
that in your heart always takes a lead ...
'cause this life is all about the deed ...
and the the struggle in you will always breed ...
till the moment you are freed of this cycle of speed...

Those Nine Seconds of perpetual Insanity...

Those Nine Seconds of perpetual Insanity...

a burning urge to challenge conformity...
a throttle to rev the engine of ability ...
faint voices in the background, of timidity ...
intermitent thoughts of decisional duality ...
but then a moment of ultimate clarity ...
bringing back the emotional solidarity ...

Those Nine Seconds of perpetual Insanity...

finally the launch into wilderness of the impending calamity ..
the gradually growing understanding of life's triviality ...
preceding the dawn of the world's eternal verity ...

Those Nine Seconds of perpetual Insanity...

the silent landing followed by a return to sanity ...
no feeling, but an immediate loss of all physicality ...
the end of the insane voyage staring at the disfigured face of reality ...

Those Nine Seconds of perpetual Insanity...

Irony

You fly the night skies,
but dream of land the horizon beholds.

I lie on this land forever attached,
but dream to someday fly free in the clouds.

This life is a tale full of irony,
yet we keep our fingers crossed,
waiting,
just waiting to be surprised.